#13 Things you probably would never know.

Looking at your photos makes it hard for me to breathe, so stop asking, please... I need the focus for this four weeks, and maybe for the following 8 years.

Hello 2011

Dear 2010,

You have been more than a friend, and more than an enemy to me. Its been awfully delightful to experience you in different ways that I imagined, and maybe in ways I don't want to imagine. Its been both a pleasure and disgrace. It is in such stance I bid thee farewell, knowing I shall never see you again, and I'll never be the same. Thank you, I hate you.

hahahaha.... stupid words aye. Just let me bask in my rays of stupidity for a moment........ okay done.

Q1. What have you learnt in the past year?

A1. I've learn to be more mature, to understand that I have responsibilities to uphold and people are watching my every move. Furthermore, some people are following my foot steps. So I must be careful. Other than that, I've learnt to be careful when it come to trust, because it turns around and bite you hard when you out it in the wrong place.

I've also learnt that relationships are to be halted for me, for the moment. I mean I've been trying to understand for years why, but now I really do understand. And I believe she wants the same too.

I've also realized that I am seriously, seriously, seriously incapable of "maturing" or "moving" a relationship in my current stage of character growth. In other words, I see now that I really am not ready. ( to you guys that are reading this and think i'm so nutso. I did have problem understand, but i'm done)

Its been a nice day, Have to stop thinking and shut down.

Vincent: out.

Christmas Eve.

Christmas Eve,

If , and only if,

Down the little pastures,

I could live.

Across the beautiful stream,

Where the candle lights gleam,

with happy little children,

Smiling in a radiant beam.

There will as I wish,

All my tears and anguish,

will be left far beyond the past,

Where time has made its last.

Today is Christmas Eve,

Thank you Jesus for your gift.

I'll look upon grace,

and love your sweet embrace.

Vincent.

CALEB'S COMING BACK.

As the topic says. =]

Life, as an update/ Girls in miniskirts that makes me wanna take a peek.

Just a little update on what's happening to the life Vincent Tan Zhuguang.

I'm finishing the 6th or 5th week of my second semester of my 1st year in NYP doing diploma in space and interior design. Currently doing an all nighter to finish my Colour Studies Model, Model Making Model, and Studio Project Model. it is thus only just to say that i'm into modelling than any of you people out there. Furthermore i'm doing it without starving myself into a skinny piece of minimalism art - skin and bones. Quite the contrary, I'm actually gaining weight. Bad sign. Need exercise.

**The following will be very honest and you will see Vincent's thoughts clear and unblemished, so if you feel rather disgusted, or you don't know Vincent for who he is, press the "X" on the top right corner of this window, live long and prosper. =] **

Everyday, I face a constant struggle. Girls in poly these days are wearing clothes as if they are competing who has the least material on their body, or who can survive the air-con with the least clothing. Childish I would say, furthermore, inconsiderate. You girls may think , that I think , you're awfully hot and given a whole lot of attention . However, ironically, I think you're a beautiful woman, who lacks self esteem, who needs to show every property that you have, because you don't have a lot.

Saddening.

Noticeability ? Yes. But what kind. Respect ?

I will not respect. I notice you, yes. Very much noticed. But it shows how much respect you deserve.

Other than that, Some girls are really nice people, and I really want to dig deeper into them and find out more of the goodness they posses inside. However, "them" showing everything at one glance is absolutely discarding me of the chance of thinking of them in a proper and respected manner.

Saddening.

I still believe in a society, where girls wear respectably , and guys who treat girls with utmost respect, with better ease.

And I pray such a day will come.

I will take my first in praying for my intermediate friends , so that they will see themselves as precious. So that their " mystery" will be kept appropriately.

"The Least of these...",

Vincent

3 laws I believe in. ( part 1) - No divorce

Have you ever thought of how the world could be better. Just like any other humanitarians , Christians and many other people who would stand at the divider of decisions and choose to do the right thing and not follow the mindless followers of the ways of the world, I am vexed.

How is it possible that people who are thought to do right since young, spanked on the butt for telling lies, scolded for listening to metal music , taught morale studies in school - come to accept homosexual as a society norm ? Display obscene Music videos in public family stores? Allow music with suicidal, sexual , rebellious content to be awarded top of the music industry?

You may be reading this blog ( seriously you should just click the X sign on the top left corner of this window if you do not know me , enough ) and think "what the heck is this guy thinking? So old fashion~" I would reply that some rules have shown their worth to stay , and have stood strong since the beginning of age. For example, the law of marriage, it should never be broken, divorce should never exist , an oath made in front of God and man, for better or worse, for richer for poorer , in weaknesses and strength...


Till death do us part...

this is the most important law I , Vincent tan believe , is the most important law that should be held firm if a country ones to bloom. For it is as I see it, a country is made up of different levels of society, such as the higher class, middle class and the working class. A society is made up of different families, big ones, little ones, extended ones. And a family is made up of a pair of parents, and a child or children. =]

Now, picture a world with faithful parents.

No divorce.

No abortions.

No orphans.

No unwanted children.

No fatherless people.

The world would be filled with well brought up children groomed in a surrounding saturated with love from both parents. These children grow up and become people who lack no love. A girl will not be exchanging virginity for undependable love in their teenage years, because their father will provide them love, enough.


Thus, it concludes my first point. No divorce.

#12 Things you probably would never know.

Sometimes, hearing that you need help, I really really want to put down everything to help you. But for now, I can't. Who am I for you to deserve that? I'm nobody to you, though you are more than somebody to me.