17th birthday

A very blessed Birthday to me . I know I have been extremely estatic today . its like i've seriously taken some estacy .

Thanks to my father who text me eventhough he's in some island in china.

And mom too .

Thanks to my lovely bunch of classmates , who yelled " Happy Birthday Vincent " in the compound where thousands of students gather . Getting so much attention, I returned a graceful bow in gratitude.hahahha

thanks to Philip tan from melbourne , Agnes from Ohio State Uni , US . Rebekah cheng from UK . Zhen yang from KL . Denise Ong From KL .

And Jeremy and Joanne Chian , Amy Liew , Caleb Chandra , Ong Xi Zhe . Tew Bai Er ,Luke Lim , Peter Ng , Aunty Lynn , Uncle Koon ....From JB .

And of course special thanks to my respected aunt Ming Hui , who gave me some good advices .

Special thanks to my cell leader joseph lok . and a bunch of people he brought to my house IN A VAN . Charles , Sarah , Salem , Joshua goh , hui peng .

Thanks to Amy and huihui , who sang me a happy birthday song .

Thanks to my fellow prefects , who wanted to a-lo-ba , me , but didn't have enough people to carry me . hahhaha

thanks to janet , eventhough i know you couldn't wish me happy birthday .

Thanks to all those people who did wish me happy birthday , and I forgot , really sorry . But you guys were cool too .

And thanks to those people who said would buy me a gift on birthday But didn't , never mind , you thoughts were counted . still love you guys .

thanks to all of you , you guys have made me one happy man .

Vincent , Birthday Boy . =]

birthday

My birthday is tomorrow . wish me .

Not the ordinary "happy Blessed birthday "

But something from you heart .

Something that makes feel how special I am to you .

Just remember , I will do the same for you .

ah.....crap . wad am I talking about .

Just wish me .

i'll be more than happy that you did . =] 

i'm apologetic

Have I brought you pain ?

-Four times .

How I felt about it ?

-I felt regretful .

Wad am I thinking of ?

-What was it that I've done to bring you pain .

Why ?

-Because it hurts me to know that I've hurt you unconsiously .

Describe your current feelings .

- I'm apologetic .

Are we wearing a masks . an invisible masks . A mask that conceals our identity ? A masks that deceives people of who you really are ? Which sums up to a question , who or what are you ?

So many question bursts in my head,

Questions that were asked throughout the ages .

Who am I ?

Am I wearing a mask ?

Are you ? Vincent , vincent .

Why the different appearance ?

Why the different atitude?

Why the different behaviour ?

Are you real ?O Vincent , vincent .

questioning about his existant ,

when he was there all the time you needed him most.

Future ,past or present .

Who are you ? 

The one i see in the mirror .

The one with eyes filled with anger .

The one I felt so familiar with .

Are you a mask , a put on ?

One I use to play my drama ?

Just an act ?

Is this who I am? or is this just reality .

If i'm also an act , a mask wear ,

why do I then condemn you  ?

Was it because I felt cheated .

or isit because I feel so much pain inside , 

Is it because i fell in love with a mask ?

Did I really fell in love , with a mask ?

questions ... masks ... hatred ...

I hate the sight of you . Away from me .

I beg of you.