today . not what you think it was. but it is .

More than i have ever hoped for , i felt misplaced . To be in malaysia , to be here . I wanted to be out there . To be places where I can feel , .... .. .. . . ..   quiet .. . . .. ....... . . . . . . . 

Sometimes i compare myself to the ones around me , 

and think to myself , what good am I?

I can't study . I don't look as good . 

I'm not exactly smart , just a look like , a cover .

I saw photos of her  ,

decorating baked cookies ,

with colourful sweet topings ,

with little time , she blends her mixtures ,

with tender love , hard effort , and maybe , just maybe ,

her emotions .

beautiful as it has been , but time has been to pityful of me .

this went on without people that has eyes to see ,

or ears to hear , to be there to feel with me .

maybe there was , but nobody but myself was able to feel,

the full , the greatest extend .

Time , Thank you  .

you have been a remedy.

to life , soul , and mind .

Despite my stupidity and stuborness ,

you went on with you road . 

and brought my present to pass .

Beauty , may not be frequently be in my eyes anymore ,

as I have become quick to judgement ,

with a alibi , saying its is for your good .

But is it?

Girls that seem so immature ,

or are they growing ,

was I like that , 

chattering away , laughing into the wind that passes by.

questionable it is .

isn't it?

Maybe I still am ,

but surely , I was . So why am I judging like i was any better .

Sueanne , I have understood your argument .

About judging .

But have you understood about mine ?

About loyalty?

meaningless , meaningless, everything is meaningless ...

without christ ,

everything , and I meant everything , is meaningless .

live and let live my friend . 

carp e die m .

proverb of my day,

" In the end it will be okay , If its not okay . . . . 

then it is not the end ."

Valiante Vinceo , L33Sa , Vinceo , Vincentq . 

Sux

what has life come to be ,

knowing what is right ,

yet not doing it .

the reason of living , that circums to nothing?

what on earth are you doing?

lazying around , having your own pity party .

wake up for goodness sake .

turn your eyes on Jesus.

Adam took the fruit of life and death ,

for a price , that we may see good and evil .

but in this generation , does it make any difference .

COME ON !!!! TELL ME , DOES IT MAKE ANY DIFFERENCE?????

we shake our heads ,

curse the politics ,

point the fingers ,

and scold vulgarity at those who did nothing .

we feel emo-lised , to look pityful ,

Shut people up who try to care ,

then blame others for being what you are ,

then feel bad for wad we've become .

then say , that we are confused .

when it all comes down to one thing .

why are we compromising to this world .

disgusting .

flithy .

Evil .

sinful .

so , what are you doing?

exams / limewire 5.1 lags

Exams are here , yet I feel no urge (urgency) to pick up my book and bury my face into it like the rest of my classmates . Seriously , somethings wrong with me , I can't sit at a table more than 1 hour . How do you guys do it , studying for 5 hours straight . Its inhuman... 

I've given up on Love . Not the family love , friendship love and blah , blah  , blah ... You know wad i mean , the lovey dovey , idiotic love that most teenagers play with , of which after sometime they come out with hurts everywhere . . .crushed? Where some that gets the good side of it , tries to prove me entirely wrong in my face . And some still day dream about like a lil kid who looks forward for the consistant ice-cream day once a week. Some even write " hope you find your true love " in peoples birthday card , when you should seriously write something else more ... brained?

I've found the total idiotic side of this merry go round . Or maybe  should just rephrase as , Merry-HURT-round . How ironic ? Yet I do not deny that I am a 17 year old ,         despo         , even so much more I desire to feel the accompanyment of someone else by me . 

I've develop a new theory , or maybe just a theory i've heard . Every man , no matter the age , has a little boy in him . He will show it from time to time . As for me , i show it all time i guess . I like to jump in my seat , stick out my tongue , laugh uncontrolably , and do the rolling fist action . I don't use to do that in tebrau . Is it true then , that you are the outcomes of your surroundings  ? 

Limewire 5.1 is fine on function . BUT LAGS LIKE SHxT . No serious , ever seen a sloth climb up the tree . That is how my come works when i installed Limewire 5.1 . After i uninstalled it , FOOOMMMmmm..!!! ferrari F1 . 

I did fine for ESt today . wrote about a thousand words in total for the essay . B.M. was cool , easy , i hope SPM was that also . English . Gosh , to think of it , i was totally drained of brain power and loss the will to write . Sux . Needless to say , modern maths , i'll get a hundred this time . Or just maybe . 

Sneezing my head of now . Thinking that the cause may be the accumilating webs of dust on the corners of my room . Could somebody clear it  . Or I should just clear it myself . ARghg.h...... i'm talking to myself more frequent. 

gtg finish my 5 page chem hw that my pregnant teacher has so sweatishly put in much effort . 

btw. its a boy .

valiante vinceo

articulate

1.sneezing .

2. having a seriously hard tongue to control

3. disgusted by some people , which on the other hand is as disgusting as me =p

4. going to sing in school , solo , louis armstrong , " What a Wonderful World "

I've always wished i could have wings . the feeling when you stretch your bare back out , you want to feel wings sprouting out . And then take flight and fly away, form your problems , to the sky , where there is no boundaries . 

thats how i'm feeling now .

Today I was being made fun of to have liked Ivy Gan . She's nice , she's pretty , but she doesn't like me , and neither should i even consider at all . She's just not my kind , or maybe i haven't forgot wei wan. Gosh .. .  what am I ?

Having two ulcers faced opposite of each other in my mouth is a total torture , especially when you can't eat properly . sux right ?

how crappy the life of vincent tan can be . we'll see boy , we'll see .

for the time being i need to cultivate the habit of talking to god . and not feel guilty for once

valiante de maske

First piece of art.

my first piece of art . from photoshop cs4.

to dear simon

Dear Simon , 

Thank you for visiting my humble blog , and comment with honesty . I would not blame you , as i do not know the level of your capability in comprehending your surroundings . In other words , maturity . Here are some points i would like to point out  , so that you would understand my point of view for this blog .

1. This is my blog . I have sovereinity over this entire blog . I say wad i want , as long as it doesn't provoke a second party . Of which i have yet to do , and hereby doing it for your sake . Apparently , this is suppose to be my own personal blog . I wanted to leave it discreet and non-publical . But i find it a way to express myself , freely so that people ( those who constanly give me support) could know what is currently running in my life . 

2. This is your problem . You can read my blog in anyway you wish to , upside down , left to right or vice versa . You are allowed to comment too. If you think your comments will benefit me , by all means , i'm all ears . But if your comments are all out to discourage me , and you daringly post it on my chatbox , it only shows what kind of person you are . If you are a christian  , then learn the fundamentals of the christian community . "Learn their needs , and help them . " 

3. You are still a welcome reader , but your name is disgraced . Hope you'll wake up .

Vincent tan