Yesterday was Saturday, spent quality time in church. Had this pastor who told gave us a personality check. I got an "I" and a "C". "I" for and influential person. Someone who affects people around him. To him , enjoyment is priority. Has no plan in everything he does. Full of ideas. Will sacrifice others for his own good. "C" , a critical thinker, needs lots of details, loves to think of new concepts, talk less, keeps to himself a lot. Plans ahead.
I was like , hm.... these are quite accurate. I was more on the I part than on the C. However it is undeniably true that I am part of both worlds. =]
Surprisingly, my dad is also a strong "I" and a secondary "C".
I am less attracted to her, but it doesn't mean I don't . Theories of the leaders constantly swim in my mind , Like " if you can't enjoy single-hood , you won't be able to survive without her , which makes you totally dependent on her. Which means you are not dependent on God. If makes a mistake, you will fall with her. "
And then there's " Vincent you need to learn to focus on God, you're surrounding your life around her. "
" I'm just attracted to her, not love."
I am, I assure you people, Dad, Joseph, Victor, the church , the leaders and everyone who cares for me, I will be a conqueror as God named me to be. I will triumph over this obstacles and be who He wants me to be. God has a great plan for me, with her or without her.
I am clearly able to control my feelings, though I get cold turkey once in awhile. But God has to be the drug I get addicted now. Its only right , when he's so Good to me.
" Dear God , May I find rest in you , my deliverer, my protector, and the Shepperd of my heart.
Somehow, this song by brooke fraser is the only romance song I ever liked.
The Thief - Brooke Fraser.
Your eyes are full,
full of the future of us
The air changes as you look across
at me in that wondering way
It is as if
I knew you before we spoke
Do our hearts know something we don't?
Conspiring, converging
without giving us any say
You sing me to sleep,
talk down my walls
Look through my windows as I wait
You could be the thief
I give the key to
You're ruining me
with secrets and gestures and looks
With sonnets and second-hand books
Playing the chords in me
nobody knew how to play
You sing me to sleep,
talk down my walls
Look through my windows as I wait
You could be the thief
I give the key to
It fits in your hand like the water in rain
It unlocks our two different selves
and shows we are the same
Rather than wait 'til I
put me out for the taking
You're breaking
You're breaking into my heart
and I'm letting you
Your eyes are full,
full of the future of us
Vincent Tan.
