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As like many other Saturdays , i attended TEENz . Listened to the very amusing message today - Hell's Bell . Fell asleep despite the topic was music. I love music .

Today I played two sessions . Enjoyed non . I couldn't feel God , I couldn't worship . However , unlike many other problems , I knew the reason to this one . I was paying more attention in getting the raw bassist in beat than focusing on God . During the second session , I had really dry hands , the strings were rough , the drummer was inexperienced . All but a great dismay , wasted my time . My questions is , did anyone benefit from my meaningless sacrifice ?

I hope so .

In the past few days , God has shown me more things in life , in growth and in the path to greater maturity . I've learnt from my many disputes with my mom , that every women is a package deal , or maybe I should rephrase that as , every person is a package deal . You have the pros , you have the cons .

It is then , I saw Ms. J's cons . I shall not go into detail about her imperfections as it would be considered a terrible act . So back to the point . . . I've always thought I've seen the worst of her , and I could accept all that . And it was so i thought she was perfect for me . But it was then at my point of delight , God reminded me of this weakness . It stunned me , gave me a hard smack on my cheeks . and made me think again . Is she the one , are you sure ?

Second thoughts are always great , as it equates balance and self acknowledgement .

On second thought , why am I even thinking about any of these .

What's mine will be mine eventually ; what's not , will never be .

Besides , so what if God tells me its her , am I ready to marry ?

However the human nature is Idiotic when it comes down to love .

I hate it when it comes to that .

Ah . . . so many challenges I've learnt . . . and all the credit belings to Ms.J . She's such an interesting . . uhm . . . . . Friend .

Thinking back the days , where I would joke about her large exposed forehead , her unique laughs that I've never heard elsewhere , her inability to pronounce certain English words , her chubby little face . It has been a long memorable 4 years . The happiness , the pain , the excitement , the disappointments . . . its all but a memory now .

I wonder if that friendship still holds its stand ?

valiante vinceo .

PS: If you are reading this , please dun speculate about this blog . I want to keep it as private as possible . However , I'm lazy to make it private and invite all the people . So please coorperate.