I went to lavender today , didn't think there would really be a place calleb by that. Oh well, to do my student pass. Didn't really think i would be lost, but the place's a mess, terrible architecture.
I'm just going to crap about today, so if you're not in for it, don't read on.
1. I'm blinded again. I'm don;t want to trust myself anymore. Sooner or later, i must face her, so i've decided i would. =]
2. I'm madly in love with her, though 3 months ago marks 5 years. I guess not getting something makes you wanna get it all the more aye ?
3. this is crap dun read.
4. Have you ever felt so lonely like you're a lil boy riding his tricycle on a empty highway leading to nowhere in the middle of a desert.
5. Have you loved someone so much you just feel so hard against yourself, and you just want to scream so loud, and deafen the whole world around you.
6. Have you ever felt afraid of going somewhere alone, to someplace you've never been? I have, and how i wish she was there by my side.
7. I'm not ready for a relationship.
8. Sux
9. I can't find a reason to hate her, maybe that's why I can't stop loving her.
10. Should ask her for a reason to hate her? Even then would she let me know her.
11. Here's the thing, I love her , but she doesn't. So I find a reason to hate her , of which i don't. But the thing is, the part that would make me hate her would be the inner most part of her, oh which she will only open to those whom are closest to her, whom she trusts.
And I am not.
I'm not ready for a marriage, because i'm not working.
I'm not ready for a relationship, because i have problems of my own, and being in a relationship will only AMPLIFY the problem. Not solve it.
God I love you, you know I do. Help me love you more.
Bang..... ah.... its nothing.
phew..... i miss caleb
pff.... i should focus..
darn my perspective drawing is good. But i can't say that, because that means i have pride.
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-_-
valiante
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