bagh.......

Bagh...... ( sounds like you're realising your breath with a "bah " sound )




have you ever felt like , " man she's soooooo the ONE " .

YOu know I've tried comparing her to every girl i've ever known in my life . And she out wins all of them and sooooo fits into all my "wants "

MY WANTS Of " A HER " FOR ME
1- Love God , Love People , Love the ministry .
2- Long hair , no need to be really pretty , but enough to pass .
3- Chinese as first language , cause i really can't work chinese out .
4- understands me , knows me , seen my " bad side " yet accept me .
5- Able to work with me , collaborate with proper decisions.
6- Lets me wear the pants ( means make the decisions ).
7- Youngest in family . Or just not the eldest .
8- Have good sociallizing ability
9- serious about the topis of love , as in always try to keep the mentality of start with one , end with one .


and guess wad, she fits into every single one of those then BOOM , God says

" NO , she's not the one "

its kinda really hard to accept , its like " man I shouldn't have asked ."

I took time to think it out . tried to understand . Smile a lil , Frown a lil .

then i talked to a wise men , Victor . and i got enlightened .

and i've come out with two teories .

Theory ONE - Nobody can love you more than God .
Theory TWO - According to theory one , God will then provide what's best for you .


Am I to be worried , NOOOOOooooOoOOOo. . . . . .

I mean i still do have feelings for her , cause it was like three years . But yeah , i think i've got over it .

if any guy were to court her in future , he will have me blessing in full .




=] valiante vincente . son of god . still man .

Hours away....

In exactly 8 hours...it would be her birthday...

Dear XxxXxxx .

I'm having thought rushing through my brain like a ...a.....

reservoir that broke loose.....

its like argh......

WHY DO YOU HAVE TO EXIST!!!!!!

sometimes i just wonder away in my thoughts...

looking out the window in a car ride...

thinking ... ... ... ... ...

wondering ... ... ...

was I ever the same as you did?

did I do wad you did to me ?

did I make a circle of my friends to hate you too...

I did , i explained my problems to joanne .

In another way , i bad mouthed.

I'm an idiot alright .

a big one ...

Could i ever say sorry enough

okay done with mister good guy

seriously i can still find 101 problems you have..

1. you're never serious , you can't be angry at anyone

for a long time,you can't sustain a relationship with anyone ,

expecially people who are serious, real serious about

this game of

L.O.V.E

You have a bunch of friends who seem to be like you...blabbering like a bunch spoilt kids ( brats , snobs )

money doesn't seem to be something you can be serious with

all you are is a small little girl in this big bad world ,

feeling all pampered out...

thinking you can work you're way though like a lil kid .

seriously i thought you were matured....but no....hell NOO..

idiotic lil kid i see.

grow up put some sense into yourself...

happy birthday in forward.

today - sunday .

I saw her today . she was beautiful. hm...
nononoon... she was stunning . yeah thats the word... i had a chat with her , just like old times . the times that i use to tease her .how she laughs ...that weird breathing sound she produce when she laughs...

it was in church ... our shoulders crossed a few times . 1,2,3,4...5..6.
6 times .
there was one particular scene that really laid a deep impression in my mind .

it was on the corridoor , the one beside canaan hall, opposite elim pavilion, under the flight of stairs . A spot that is a lil darker than the others. crossed path with her then . I just looked in her eyes, and passed. her hair flew off her shoulders into the oncoming wind. she was ... beautiful . If I would have one wish at that time , I would wish that time would stop . that I may stare into her eyes , longer ... a lil bit more... cause i want to...

maybe i should really stop . cause it will really bring back memories, flash backs.

bye