today . not what you think it was. but it is .

More than i have ever hoped for , i felt misplaced . To be in malaysia , to be here . I wanted to be out there . To be places where I can feel , .... .. .. . . ..   quiet .. . . .. ....... . . . . . . . 

Sometimes i compare myself to the ones around me , 

and think to myself , what good am I?

I can't study . I don't look as good . 

I'm not exactly smart , just a look like , a cover .

I saw photos of her  ,

decorating baked cookies ,

with colourful sweet topings ,

with little time , she blends her mixtures ,

with tender love , hard effort , and maybe , just maybe ,

her emotions .

beautiful as it has been , but time has been to pityful of me .

this went on without people that has eyes to see ,

or ears to hear , to be there to feel with me .

maybe there was , but nobody but myself was able to feel,

the full , the greatest extend .

Time , Thank you  .

you have been a remedy.

to life , soul , and mind .

Despite my stupidity and stuborness ,

you went on with you road . 

and brought my present to pass .

Beauty , may not be frequently be in my eyes anymore ,

as I have become quick to judgement ,

with a alibi , saying its is for your good .

But is it?

Girls that seem so immature ,

or are they growing ,

was I like that , 

chattering away , laughing into the wind that passes by.

questionable it is .

isn't it?

Maybe I still am ,

but surely , I was . So why am I judging like i was any better .

Sueanne , I have understood your argument .

About judging .

But have you understood about mine ?

About loyalty?

meaningless , meaningless, everything is meaningless ...

without christ ,

everything , and I meant everything , is meaningless .

live and let live my friend . 

carp e die m .

proverb of my day,

" In the end it will be okay , If its not okay . . . . 

then it is not the end ."

Valiante Vinceo , L33Sa , Vinceo , Vincentq .