#14 Things you probably would never know.

When I think of you, you sometimes burn a hole straight through my brain. Thats how frustrating it is to deal with your "silences". Though sometimes its just that i'm forgotten. Hahaha... oh well.

Update

Hello.

A lil update on life. Life is good , at the moment. It will soon take a down turn I predict.

1. I got my results.

I got my GPA for my first year. I was very very very very very very very disfiguredly unhappy. It is as if I could frown at my results till my face become disfigured. Instead of getting the 3.80/4 .0 I expected to get, my results dropped to 3.68. To many this is pretty much acceptable. However I am at large a very dissatisfied man due to the reason why I got such despairing results. It was because of my digital rendering ( 3ds Max).

We, students, are required to hand up 4 soft copies of the assignments, and 4 hard copies of the assignments. 4 soft copies handed up , Checked. 4 hard copies handed up, checked.

Results came up, all As , 1B+ for autocad drawing, and a "D" for Digital Rendering?

Found out, I have an incomplete submission. Only 3 of the 4 hard copies were received by the lecturer. Someone or somehow, after I handed it up , took it, or it was dropped to some corner like we see in cartoons of how objects are being dropped around and ended up in totally unfathomable places.

However through this I've learnt, when I put my trust in grades, God will not let me go on.

Conclusion, I will hereby put my trust in God, and enjoy the process of learning design, which is subjectively graded. Haha to the Irony of arts. =]

Valiante Vinceo.

Here's the thing.

People who know me, knows that when I say " here's the thing" it really means the conclusion, or the summary, or the most important thing is going to be said.

After 6 years I've realized a cycle.

1. Guy likes girl.

2. Girl is closed up, builds a forté around her and anything personal.

3. Guy backs off.

4. Girl feels comfortable, opens up a little.

5. Guy takes the chances.

6. Girl plays along for awhile, still thinking the guy has lost feelings for her. Having a good time of friendship.

7. Guy pops the question, girl gets real shock. Backs a thousand miles away. Builds up the forté again.

8. Guy feels horrible, thinks he's horribly sorry. Misses all the good laughs with her.

9. Guy still likes girl, but understands enough to know to back off.

10. After a few months, maybe half a year, girl thinks guy has lost his feelings for her already.

11. Girl opens up again.

Cycle goes on.

Here's the thing.

Now why? Why is the girl still opening herself to him, waving to him from afar saying hi, allows the guy to send her home ,shares to him her family stories.

Its currently at step 6.

It will NOT come to step 7.

But how long , dear God before this cycle ends.

" I'll be waiting for you, in the future." Chiaki - from the movie - The girl Who Leapt Through Time.

Lets see how long I can last in step 6.

Valiante Vinceo.

Vincent updates

Today is awesome. Well at least for the start. I got as to what I believe the most expensive birthday gift I've gotten so far. I was told it worths about 200$. A Box of COPIC MARKERS.... contributed by the same loving friends who tortured me with the Fillet-O-Fish filled with 17 packets of wasabi.

As for an update for me, I've been a lil tired from work. I have quite a few things on my mind that I need to do.

1. Design Studio - Year End Project - the workload is more than all the following combined.

2. Autocad Submission

3. Typography Research panels.

4. Ergonomics Research Presentation.

5. 3ds Max.

If you have free time do pray for me, as I DO know that some of you prayerful people are reading this blog. =]

As for her, I believe I have finally been able to put her behind and concentrate on what God has planned for me. My future is getting more and more unpredictable ( and busy, haha ), and I can only trust one person in this highly dense mist- Jesus.

I'll update soon.

Vincent,

Son of God, Mighty Conquerer.

Update.

Feeling kinda stressed up and crappy for the moment.

Yesterday I was being tied up to the story of the "self-horny man" according to a fellow classmate. She said when she was driving, a man waved a red coloured G-string. To make things worst, it was a malaysian car. Thus in her way of thinking, she keeps mentioning to all the classmates how horny Malaysian Men are in General. I said nothing and did nothing to defend, or my defendant of saying not all Malaysians are like that have fallen on deaf ears.

" There's no point arguing with people who are not so smart ( stupid )." Caleb.

or in other words, as I would see it, no point to debate with someone who won't take your point of view, because it becomes a preaching session instead of a debate.

Am I being to nice, allowing people to bully me, Crack Malaysian jokes. Saying I'm Malaysian in every "fail" action I do.

Arh...heck. Forget it. I'll take it in. hoping one day she will see.

Valiante

Update.

Feeling kinda stressed up and crappy for the moment.

Yesterday I was being tied up to the story of the "self-horny man" according to a fellow classmate. She said when she was driving, a man waved a red coloured G-string. To make things worst, it was a malaysian car. Thus in her way of thinking, she keeps mentioning to all the classmates how horny Malaysian Men are in General. I said nothing and did nothing to defend, or my defendant of saying not all Malaysians are like that have fallen on deaf ears.

" There's no point arguing with people who are not so smart ( stupid )." Caleb.

or in other words, as I would see it, no point to debate with someone who won't take your point of view, because it becomes a preaching session instead of a debate.

Am I being to nice, allowing people to bully me, Crack Malaysian jokes. Saying I'm Malaysian in every "fail" action I do.

Arh...heck. Forget it. I'll take it in. hoping one day she will see.

Valiante

School

Trying to set up hiding places in class to hide from the aneh security is so fun. =]

#13 Things you probably would never know.

Looking at your photos makes it hard for me to breathe, so stop asking, please... I need the focus for this four weeks, and maybe for the following 8 years.

Hello 2011

Dear 2010,

You have been more than a friend, and more than an enemy to me. Its been awfully delightful to experience you in different ways that I imagined, and maybe in ways I don't want to imagine. Its been both a pleasure and disgrace. It is in such stance I bid thee farewell, knowing I shall never see you again, and I'll never be the same. Thank you, I hate you.

hahahaha.... stupid words aye. Just let me bask in my rays of stupidity for a moment........ okay done.

Q1. What have you learnt in the past year?

A1. I've learn to be more mature, to understand that I have responsibilities to uphold and people are watching my every move. Furthermore, some people are following my foot steps. So I must be careful. Other than that, I've learnt to be careful when it come to trust, because it turns around and bite you hard when you out it in the wrong place.

I've also learnt that relationships are to be halted for me, for the moment. I mean I've been trying to understand for years why, but now I really do understand. And I believe she wants the same too.

I've also realized that I am seriously, seriously, seriously incapable of "maturing" or "moving" a relationship in my current stage of character growth. In other words, I see now that I really am not ready. ( to you guys that are reading this and think i'm so nutso. I did have problem understand, but i'm done)

Its been a nice day, Have to stop thinking and shut down.

Vincent: out.