Eyes.

I see ,

I think I understand ,

And then I loose it.

I feel ,

I thought I was moved,

And then I loose it again.

I dream,

I judge it reality,

And then I wake.

I saw you.

I feel you.

I recently dreamed about you.

And then I have to leave.

I want to thank God, though my heart is reluctant.

I want to praise God, though storms surround me.

I wan to believe this is what you have for me , though circumstances prove me wrong.

I want to see , God , I want to see this world through your eyes.

And God , I want to see what I can do, than just sit down here, waiting on the world to change.

I want brand new eyes.

Valiante de Conquerista.

Understand: circle theory

First , I send you a message. Then you misunderstood it as a message with purpose of chasing you. So , you don't reply. Then I feel funny, because to me , that message is just me being friendly,casual , random. After that, I feel that you're trying to hide from me, like you hate me, give me weird and cold faces. Though you don't hate me actually. I start to forget how to treat you normal . I become " Unable To Function" in front of you. After awhile, you feel fine, give me a smile. and we're good again. Then , I send you a normal friendly message. The circle theory goes again.

dedicated to you ,

you know who you are.

Now I'm asking you , will you trust me that everything I do unto you from this day on , has no deeper reasons than that of you are my friend, my good friend , and nothing more. I expect nothing from you. Just trust me and maybe you will break this Circle theory.

I'm going to leave soon. Just give me a break , okay ?

I've understood . But will it be enough ?

Vincent.

Just today.

Rejected.

1.Dear Vincent,

The SPM/STPM application portal is closed already, we cannot extend any more as school is starting. Hence we can only advise you to apply again next year.

Regards,

Jessica Yuan (Ms)

Office of the Registrar

Republic Polytechnic

2.Hi Vincent

We have considered your appeal and regret to inform you that your appeal is not successful as your SPM aggregate is beyond the course cut-off point. Competition for limited vacancies is very keen and admission is based on merit and available vacancies.

Please write directly to Ngee Ann Polytechnic if you wish to appeal for their course.

Thanks and regards.

Evannia Lee (Ms)
Duty Officer
Admissions Office

Singapore Polytechnic.

3.Dear Tan,

We refer to your appeal.

Entry to the polytechnics is merit-based. Applicants must meet the entry requirements to be eligible for a course. However, being eligible for a course does not guarantee a place in a particular course. This is because an applicant's chances of securing a place in a particular course will depend on the demand for the course. We regret to inform you that we are unable to accede to your request for admission to the Diploma courses in Architecture and Common Engineering Programme as your aggregate is beyond the course cut-off point.

Competition for these courses are very keen and we have had to turn away other candidates as well.

Thank you for your interest in courses conducted by Singapore Polytechnic.

Yours sincerely,
Norida
Duty Officer
Admissions Office

Lets see how many more are coming.

Vincent

Update

Sometimes I just wonder how long is life going to be ?

Sometimes I just wonder why does things explode in my face ?

Sometimes I just wonder why the easiest things in life has to be made hard by God ?

Sometimes I just wonder why God put her in my life , to a certain extend of hindering my life ? I understand God , you want me to grow . But isn't it time you give me a sign ? Show me something. GOD PLEASE.... pull me out of this deep hole already ?

You know God , sometimes I think my surroundings have thought me by mouth that you exist , but in action you don't. Nobody around me shows that they rely on you for decisions.

I don't know you voice God , talk to me , and show me sign its from you. Y

You know God , I love you right ? I want to live like you want me to. But God you know this ain't gonna work if you don't start showing me directions. Poly just rejected me twice God , and you know i'm not the kind that takes rejection easily, especially when they keep telling you the same thing with different ways. Why did you drop my grades that bad, and bless those who don't even live for your name? I mean eventhough 5As ain't that bad, but god , they are telling me that I can't enter school because my aggregated score is not enough.

You know God, I'm feeling very tired. I sin everyday , and I can't step out . I am very ashamed of myself. Please give me strength.

God tell me lord , one thing. Do you want me to do architecture. I mean you don't put me through attachment and develop interest for nothing right ? Argh... why is everything so hard?

Can you show me already? Because God here I am , I'm crying . I'm desperate. will you open up a door for me already ?

God here , in my hands are the talents you give me. Art, music , maybe a lil bit of science. Use me lord to glorify your name in a certain extend that I can't say it was myself.

So god , do you want me to study architect in singapore polytechnic. If not , send me lord , somewhere I can glorify your name.

If I leave God , please take care of the TEENz WMM . I know you are in control , though sometimes I thought I was. Please take care of my cellgroup members. Do you really want me to leave JB ? God , please , you are God , you can't make a change for me right ? to let me stay here and serve you more.

God if end up leaving JB , is it because you want me to be parted from her? Is it because i have failed to get rid of my feelings for her ? Then its not fair you know ? I have to give up my optimum choice because you set someone in my life that I can't overcome ? God I officially give you my feelings. everything I have for her , I give it to you.

I thank you God for giving victor........

I thank you God for blessing priscilla with the No.1 in architecture faculty SP.

I thank you God for placing me in FGC.

I thank you God for giving me great parents.

I thank you God for giving me a talent in playing guitar.

I thank you God for giving me a talent in sharing.

I thank you God for letting me a chance to work in church.

I acknowledge your work oh lord , in my life. Blessed be your name , forever and ever.

your's sincerely ,

your son.

Vincent,

Update

To those who think I did awesome and deliberately text me to congratulate me on results such as 5As 5Bs , Wollah~ I didn't make it for SP-architecture. The one thing I want so much. So thanks for rubbing in the salt and give me so much hope.

Nah~ don't listen to what I just said. Thanks you guys for encouraging me. I'm waiting for a reply for the appeal that i wrote in. Hopefully by the 6th of april I will know.

If not , Goodbye JB , hello KAMPAR. Goodbye TEENz Camp Concert. Goodbye Cellgroup , Goodbye TEENz WMM .

I don't want to. So please God , let me in to Singapore Polytechnic. And shut my mom up about pushing me into kampar. I really don't want to go.

Tell me Lord , is it because of her I don't want to go ?

tell me lord in my dreams as i sleep tonight.

Vincent.

My dearest Heavenly Father.

To my dearest heavenly father,

I wonder if there are better words than "thank you" to clarify what my heart wants to say to you, but you would already know, wouldn't you ? I thank you God for placing different people in my life, as they toughen me up to brace the waves ahead. Though to me , they are like masked thieves that I do not blame , and though they are but still an edging sword piercing through my heart, though they disheartened me and bring me down to the very dust of the earth , I will and again I will say, I'll will praise you in this storm.

Though sometimes I do not see your hand in front of my guiding path, I will still in faith believe that you are my strength behind my back that pushed me on to this very day. Though God sometimes I really do not see the reasons of these fiery paths lighted in flames , but I will walk through this fire , if you want me to. For I know you have plans for me , plans to prosper me , to give me a hope and a future, where Goodness and mercy shall follow me , everywhere that I go.

God I want to believe. Though you say faith of a mustard seed is enough , but God you never clarified the measure of faith to the size of physical matter. How then Lord almighty do I know If Abraham the father of faith only have faith the size of a speck dust not even worth in your eyes to lay upon?Tell me oh god in my dreams if my faith worth thee a thought?

God please , keep my strong , show me your ways , as I face this sinful generation, where even those called your children bask in glory under the enemies' shadow of sin. Help me Lord stand firm in your ways , your righteousness , and of your great humility , against the ebb and flow of the world.

Help me lord , walk in your foot steps , not my friends , not my elders , not my enemies. But to walk as you did , like how you paced over the earth , in sandals I'm in no way fit to carry. I am indeed unworthy , yet I am still in your eyes , a Son.

I look forward to the day you call me into your arms. The warmth embrace when you would say , " Come here and find rest in me , you did wonderful... wonderful indeed ... and I am proud of you... "

" No none Go with me , Still I will follow... "

" I wanna be like a child lord, calling you daddy , daddy.... For I am yours... "

Vincent tan,

A Conqueror,

as you have could me to be.

Vincent tan driving is a bad idea.

I drove one of these today. And I almost kissed a perodua Myvi.

=]

my fault.