thinking.

I'm thinking ,

That maybe I should let you know ,

that I need to leave all these behind ,

including you .

I'm thinking ,

That maybe I should let you go ,

beyond my reach ,

into the path you should go .

I'm thinking ,

That maybe it is right ,

to leave you into God's hands ,

and erase this memory and history .

I'm thinking ,

That maybe I should forgive myself ,

for hating you ,

of all these challenges you've given me .

I'm thinking ,

That maybe I should believe in myself ,

that I can face you head on again ,

without feeling the guilt inside.

I'm thinking ,

That maybe I should give myself to death ,

let it consume me ,

and make all of these go away ,

But I can't .

Vincent.